Finally in a better place.

I feel a lot better. Since I stopped expecting Danny to be Prince Charming, both of us feel a lot better. He is actually trying to be around me and do stuff with me. I am in a different state of mind now though. And though I still feel very fragile. As long as I am careful, I think I will come out of this just fine. 

I am not sure yet if I am happy about it or wish it happened differently, but the way Danny has dealt with my crisis. From start to finish is what has shaped how I am viewing things now. Which is basically I still love and care about him, but am doing better to do what's best for me. And not be worried about of he likes it or not. Because I'll never be able to what's right for me if I'm worried about if he likes it or not. 

Like I smoke to much, and I know that. But it's something I need to not worry about his opinion of. If I need to smoke, I will. If he doesn't want to smoke, he should stop putting me in stressful situations. That would be more helpful for me then him pouting and being judgmental about it. I don't like the way he can't even give me real attention even when he tries. 

But if all he wants is a roommate to watch tv with. I can be that for a while. 

We are leaving in a few days to go to Panama City Florida for a month. I hope it  works out ok, because Cora has spent to much time with the grandparents and is very bratty and whiney and annoying. Hopefully we can get her back to normal