I don't want to be alone forever

Lady gaga has a song on her newest album called gypsy. And it is exactly how I feel. "I don't want to be alone forever, but I can be tonight."

I was realizing last night after I gave frank and Nathan a hug good bye. That I am really craving a real hug. Not that anyone is bad at hugging, but I just realize that I don't have anyone that I hug that I feel like is bettering me. I want to feel a hug from someone who I look up to. I want someone to look up to. I want someone whose opinion about me I respect. And I want that opinion to about the amazing potential I know I have wanting to burst out of me. 

I can not think of a Senerio for my life that would truly be happy without that. Also I can not think of one that would be hell with it. 

I'm tired of feeling pompous and erogant for saying what I feel to be true. Actually I'm kind of fed up with talking all together.

I did a show this past Sunday. It was pretty fun. And we are excited to do another. The rush I got from the nerves was amazing. And addicting. Also discovered that "two midgets shitting in a bucket" is the funniest thing ever