floatin'

Today I cleaned out my stuff and left my moms house and came back home. Hopefully it won't be for long, but this is better for Coraline. she needs her some stability. I am not sure what that means yet or anything. Danny asked me to go camping with him and coraline, so i did even though i didnt feel good about it.

as usual danny is making the situation awkward. I am trying not to talk much, and am trying to not have anxiety anticipating this turning into a fight just because i am not being overly social with him. But I am not in the mood for his weird lets-play-dumb-and-be-awkward game. Although by not catering to his pouting i think i am technically playing it. lol why am i thinking about this?

It is very pretty out here. and nice temperature at sunset. we are out on the coeur d' alene river. I would consider coming back here. we only brought minimal stuff. because we are only going to be out here until tomorrow. I have decided i really like that tent idea and putting the shell back on the truck.

I found a lot of great stuff on amazon.com like a portable toilet that i like,
and a portable sink, wash tub for laundry, solar generator, i have a heater that runs of propane, a great little fridge... most of that kind of stuff i have found pretty easily. i am mostly worried about storage of my sewing machines and storage of that kind of stuff I am hoping eventually i can make some of my income from flea markets and fairs and things like that. i am pretty sure it is going to take me at least a year to really get in the groove of that, knowing what sells, knowing what events to hit, etc... but i am more worried about the storage then if i could sell the stuff or not lol.

The other thing i am worried about is all my creatures i plan to have growing back there lol kombucha, yoghurts, krauts, not to mention sprouts and mushrooms and herbs... not only is room going to be tight for these things, but it can get pretty bouncy back there. especially if i have to go on a bumpy road. i will have to make sure its all really secure!

lol funny that my 2 biggest fears are about my crafts. sewing and fermenting lol. the things i actually know about.
back in real life ive forgotten that I am afraid of driving, i never go anywhere alone, as much as i like doing it, i dont have much experience camping, ive never lit a fire, i cant back up that truck worth shit and i hate pumping gas! lol but im not worried about any of that stuff because i know i will eventually get better at all of it, and it is all worth learning. honestly im not that worried about the other stuff either. I will find room, and if i don't, it doesnt go with me lol simple as that.

Welp i cant post this, because im no where near wifi, so i will add to this in the morning and post when i get home ;)

Today was fun, we floated down the river for a bit and then i walked back to get the truck and found a lot of fun surprises, like a cute bridge and pretty paths. so after i got back i made cora and danny walk with me and found even more fun! like a castle ruin and "the dark woods" as cora called them. lol the dark woods had booby traps like branches and a rusty barb wire i cut my toe on lol. she would have had a lot more fun had she not been so whiney. we went on a fun little trail too that took us up a mountian and back down and to a creek lol. it was a lot of fun. i am not sure if the awkwardness ever let up. maybe a little. we swam a little more before going home. and danny jumped off a bridge a few times. all in all i guess it was a good day.